I sometimes sat and found myself crippled by an anxiety of some kind about a year ago, and as many of you will know its a really crappy feeling. I’ve always worried about what people think of me, how I look and my choices in life.
When I started this blog I didn’t tell a single person about it, I pretty much kept it hidden until my followers started to grow and people would begin to find me on Instagram and Facebook. I was embarrassed to be opening myself up to people, and even more so to the people I’d known for years but had always kept a guard up to. When they did follow me I found myself holding back on posts, worrying that they would think what I was doing was stupid.
As I’ve got more into the swing of things especially the past few months, I just seemed to stop caring. Like literally. I know that when I post a new picture or video that someone, somewhere will be picking it apart, critiquing every bit of it, and that thought used to just swallow me up.
I have chosen to share my life with you guys, and that’s a big thing. I realised I needed to grow some balls and stop caring what anyone else thought, and this gave me a way to do just that. I have the most amazing readers and Instagram community that no matter what negativity you receive, they are always there to bring you back up, and I hope I do the same for them. Motherhood can be a lonely place at times, which is why I enjoy talking about my experiences and hope that others don’t feel as alone through the ups and downs.
I don’t care about sharing my face without makeup anymore.
I don’t care about admitting when I’m feeling a little down.
I don’t care for the negative people.
I don’t care about admitting failings as a parent
This journey has finally got me TALKING, something that was super hard for me. Discussing any kind of feelings is rough and I’ve never been great at it, but I’ve stopped caring and I’ve got to stop holding myself back.
I admitted I had lost my way a little on Instagram over the weekend and I had such a lovely response, I hope you all see me here for you as much as you are for me.
Happy Reading x